Life and Strife and Peace

So, my grandpa died yesterday. It just topped off the whole life drama that includes a variety of misfortunes and pain, physically and emotionally. God has strengthened me though. A few months ago, I wouldn't have been able to take the beating of the last month or two. I would have angrily and ignorantly blamed God for it all. God's changing my heart. I'm happier for one, joyful despite all the trials. Why? Because God helped me get over myself. It isn't about me and it never was. I just hadn't gotten that memo. I wanted this, this, and that and deserved it. Well, that was my attitude at least. Trials will always happen and I believe how you react says alot about who you are. How I reacted in the past showed me to be petty, selfish, angry, and entitled. I hope that today and in the future it will show me to be graceful, loving and kind, patient, and devoted to Christ. P.S I LOVE my husband and he is becoming an amazing cook! :)